alot of things happened the past 6 days.
and.. im lost in my own world.
so many things happened that i myself is lost.
so very lost.
i know things are wrong.
yet i still go ahead with it.
and things turn out to be expected.
crying is all i can do. and all ive been doing.
all i ever did was nothing but cry.
but finally, today. after i realise i live my own life.
and not living it on someone else..
i picked myself up and stopped crying.
breaking down.
crying my ass out last nite is disgracing.
i hardly slept a wink.
crawled up my bed. toss and turn.
and i still cant fall asleep.
4am close to 430am. i gave in. and slept.
woke up at 6am. with my puffed up eyes.
dreaded going to sch. bcos i know ill lose control.
but still. i went.
i dont cry bcos i wan sympathy..
i cry bcos crying silently helps no more...
broke down 3 times in sch. and ended up crying...
is also disgracing. 38 pairs of eyes looking at you.
you're the focus of the class.
all you did was just sitting there and cry.
trying to wipe off the tears..
but they seem never ending.
they just kept coming like a running tap.
its hard not to cry. its hard to say its alright.
its hard to let go. its hard to say goodbye.
i cant forget. its impossible to forget.
i wont forget. its difficult to forget.
i wanna cry my sorrows away.
i wanna drink my sorrows away.
i dont wanna live a moment in unhappiness.
i wanna be happy.
i wanna be the happiest like ive once used to be.
maybe its time to set out for a new story.
or maybe this story can still be salvage.
i dont know. ive been waiting.
and is still waiting.
let me know if this still can be salvage.
i wanna move on with time.
i wanna cry no more...
but deep down inside. ive to admit..
i still love you. and i need you badly..
posted by babies- @ 7:14:00 AM
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